Friday, March 16, 2007

So Much Things to Say

So lately I've been accomplishing some goals.

Last December, I met Pete Townshend. That was a major life goal. This week, I got to 500 feedback points on ebay - 100% positive. That's right, I'm perfect!
On Ebay. I can't tell you what an incredibly great feeling it is to be perfect, somewhere. I've been longing for it my whole life!!! Ok then, another major life goal, ACHEIVED.
Today I hit "Loyal Viewer" category on this site I go to, Television Without Pity . Now, I'm one of the cool people.

I ran across this quote from Michelangelo the other day: "The greatest danger for most of us is not that our aim is too high and we miss it, but that it is too low and we reach it."

I've been wondering, what would happen if I set my sights a little higher? Of course, sometimes I do. I resolved to figure out my son's learning disability situation this year and I think I've done that. We found what seems like the right school, and we know exactly what we need to do for him. I understand now why I get the blank stares from the school staff when I talk about dyslexia. I know I'm not crazy! Hooray!!! None of that was true 7 months ago.

I resolved to not get divorced and make my marriage work three years ago. We're getting there. We're definitely not divorced! That is an achievement. We're getting closer.

We had a great family vacation to Hawaii last November. Two glorious weeks. I never thought I'd be able to say we had a "great" vacation and mean it. We really did. Very few Chevy Chase-like incidents.

I've gotten up most mornings the past 7 months. Nothing to sneeze at when you have two grumpy kids to get to school and have to then go to the job you are feeling ambivalent and unpassionate about. (Spoiled brat that I am, I want to feel passionate about my job!!!!)

I've become a much better mother than I started out as. It did not come naturally to me and was so very hard in the first couple of years.

But, I never did finish my masters or Phd. I never became a naturopath. I haven't yet saved the world. Hunger still exists. My weight still goes up and down. Ok, well, it stopped going down about a year ago. My about-to-be-teenage daughter lacks focus and I'm wondering if she has mild ADHD. And no, I don't have to diagnose my children with whatever the latest thing is.. But if the shoe fits, let's get some help.

So my recent successes have me wanting to make a list of new goals. Not too high - I don't want to feel any more inadequate. But. What do I want to accomplish in this life?

I'm going to start off slowly. Also, I think it might be good to keep tracking the smaller things. Those are the things that get me through the day.

-Continue to become more nurturing with my children. Let my anger go.
-Try to err more on the 'eating healthier' part of the spectrum. Maybe eat a little less. I honestly don't know if I can.
-Continue to let go of my diet Pepsi habit, substituting tea.
-Write a blog post with all the words spelled correctly.

To be continued.

"Dogs have owners, cats have staff."

1 comment:

CC said...

Maybe you should start a 101 in 1001 days list. It's harder than you think. I have been posting five or ten at a time and plan to have the list complete and start crossing things off on April 5th.